Consecration, Day 3

"1 Have mercy upon me, O God, according to thy lovingkindness: according unto the multitude of my tender mercies blot out my transgressions, 2 Wash me thoroughly from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin. 3 For I acknowledge my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me. 4 Against thee, thee only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight: that thou mightest be justified when thou speakest, and be clear when thou judgest. 5 Behold, I was shapen in iniquity; and in sin did my mother conceive me.

6 Behold, thou desirest truth in the inward parts: and in the hidden part thou shalt make me to know wisdom. 7 Purge me with hyssop, and I shall be clean: wash me, and I shall be whiter than snow. 8 Make me to hear joy and gladness; that the bones which thou hast broken may rejoice.

9 Hide thy face from my sins, and blot out all mine iniquities. 10 Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. 11 Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. 12 Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. 13 Then will I teach transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.

14 Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, thou God of my salvation: and my tongue shall sing aloud of thy righteousness. 15 O Lord, open thou my lips; and my mouth shall shew forth thy praise. 16 For thou desirest not sacrifice; else would I give it: thou delightest not in burnt offering. 17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.

18 Do good in thy good pleasure unto Zion: build thou the walls of Jerusalem. 19 Then shalt thou be pleased with the sacrifices of righteousness, with burnt offering and whole burnt offering: then shall they offer bullocks upon thine altar."

(Psalms 51)

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After reading this entire Psalms, I've definitely been speaking this in most of my other prayer sessions. Particularly the cleansing and renewing in verses 6-12. Often times when I become depressed, I drown myself in emotion. I end up being so caught up in what I'm feeling vs. what the Word states and a lot of the time I really don't want to hear it when it's brought to my attention.

I cannot continue to let myself slip and slide. My ultimate short-term goal is to be able to hear His voice, know His signs, and be able to work within that. I need to be chastened by the Word of God. I need to become more committed and consistent in my walk with Christ, in order to develop a serious habit of praise, prayer, and active repentance.