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Monday, August 13, 2012

Write It Down, Make It Happen

For the past year I've been hearing this message, and the more I see it the more I'm convinced that God is prodding me with a stick or something.

"Write it Down, Make It Happen."
"Write the Vision, and Make it Plain."

So far this past year have been tumultuous when it comes to my faith. Change is a lengthy and a rocky process when it comes to your lifestyle. There has been many times where I feel like I have failed and wanted to give up. At the same time these '#fail' moments have given me a chance to see a different side of myself, or realize what I have subconsciously buried within myself.

Not getting too deep with that (you can probably find it on my faith blog later on), this message has been put before me on many occasions.

The biblical scripture that this theme comes from is Habakkuk 2:2-3 where it says: "And the Lord answered me, and said, Write the vision, and make it plain upon tables, that he may run that readeth it. For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry."


The first time I heard of it, was through BronzeGoddess01's channel. She started a small series called "Write it Down, Make it Happen Campaign".



She had a couple of videos on this 'campaign' of hers, and it's still an ongoing thing (after all, these things fall into place over time) but she, personally, have been receiving some pretty huge responses since she's started.
When I first watched them I was like 'cool, I'll get on this ASAP' but of course, I've been procrastinating. I haven't actually gotten a journal yet xD

But then this message keeps popping up... last month a sister from my church made a video about this message... and then last WEEK my pastor was talking about it as well! I swear, when you get into spirituality and stuff, you start picking up stuff that sometimes feel so weird and the far-fetched will occur with ease.



Whether you believe in a higher being, or you simply believe in yourself, faith is such a strong and important part of our lives. SO, I'll be officially starting this for myself. I'll be digging through the bunch of unwanted stationary sets my great aunt gives me every Christmas, hoping one of them has a small journal or something inside LOL. Otherwise I'll be pressing my way to finding a nice little book to work with. No more procrastination. If I have to be ghetto and use post-it notes to get it started, then.... xD;



(Reposted from my main blog)

Sunday, August 12, 2012

August Update

Time keeps moving too fast...

My sister's wedding was last month, as well as a convention I worked at for the weekend, and so much church activity as well... I've been procrastinating with updates on this blog. I've been trying hard to be up to date on my main blog, as well.

I had failed the 21-day consecration I was put on, and for a while I was feeling really down about it. It caused me to look at myself in a certain light because of what I went through and how I handled it.

Overall, I wasn't enthusiastic about it. That attitude is what did me in in such a short amount of time... I remember having told the 1st Lady, "I'd rather be on the all-water fast instead of this!" and hearing myself say that revealed a very selfish part of me. It opened my eyes a bit, and I know the Holy Ghost helped me see it as well, to see myself in such a way.

My 5 favorite things, I later realized, impacted so many levels of my flesh. It attacked each of my 5 senses... it attacked my carnal being, particularly my emotional side, as well as my overall self-identity. It targeted everything and I see exactly why God had assigned that to us. I see how that would impact our women's ministry. I saw.

When I realized these things, and I thought it over, and I prayed on it, I tried to pull myself together to at least finish it off. During our Tuesday night prayers at the church, I broke down and simply cried in the middle of prayer. Just straight cried. I was grieved because of the way I acted about it all, that I didn't take it seriously and at that point it was really hard to catch up and get the full experience I should've gotten. Not only that, but, the temptations that rose up when I did seriously try was too much to bear. A part of me was shattered and I could not keep my composure. Not long after, did I break the consecration again.

The only thing that I can say about my failure, is that I learned so much of myself. It brought out a part of me that I kept myself in denial about, things that I just straight-up ignored and buried for the sake of my emotional health. It brought up a nasty spirit that was dwelling in myself. Through that realization, I see where I need to concentrate on myself.

I plan to redo this consecration before we fly off to Guyana for our mission trip, as well as the fast that I was supposed to put myself on back in June. My concentration for the rest of this year is to focus on my strength spiritually, my relationship to God and my sensitivity to the Holy Spirit, not only in preparation for the epic stuff that is about to go down in South America, but to seriously push myself to make the lifestyle changes I need...